I wrote to the narcissist – “I feel erased. I don’t exist to you.” The date I wrote this is not recorded.
This explains how I felt living with the Gordon, the narcissist.
At the time I did not know I was living with a fragile, vulnerable, covert narcissist.
The drawing was made by my 3 year old daughter.
” I Can’t Get Through To You
You define my experiences and seem to fail to grasp that.
I am a person with my own reality.
I feel erased.
I don’t exist to you.
Trying to maintain a relationship with you leaves me exhausted and in mental anguish and emotional pain.
You don’t want to hear me, understand me, nor even WANT to understand me.
You have to be right.
You tell me what I think and who I am.
Imply I am mad when I don’t agree.
You feel attacked when asked a question.
You don’t seem to hear me.
You avoid responsibility.
You are unable to be straight with people.
The typical passive aggressive man has not dealt with anger and power issues with parents and replays them in the current relationship.
I have a right to everything I feel. “
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