Gordon hated me. I was an ‘appliance’ for him to control, to gain emotional fuel and for all the ‘residual benefits’ that came with it such as me running his live for him and taking responsibility for everything.
If I had not had dreams and ambitions for my children and myself, then our life would have ended up like his parents. They lived a small, sad life of misery and drudgery and his mother was the scapegoat for all his father’s anger. She was the victim John the narcissist her entire married life and I saw this whenever we were in their company. Gordon treated her the same way.
You can see them in action here.
He had no desires in life and was happy to plod along imbued in negativity and excuses not to, rubbing his face, signing and saying his most popular excuse phrase, ‘haven’t has chance.’ That should be his epitaph!
Below are some examples of the abusive texts I received from Gordon.
As you can tell by the contempt filled words, he hates me. I have learned that a narcissist cannot love anyone. This video explains why.
They show his twisted mindset, his abuse and insults.
The texts are full of transference and projection whereby the accuses me of doing what her has ACTUALLY done. Including his brainwashing of my children against me. As a narcissist he is ‘projection-heavy’ in all his writings and interactions with me.
The narcissist has a grandiose opinion of himself. His sense of self-esteem and self-worth depends on how others perceive him and he denies flaws in himself and if forced to blame me for his own shortcomings, mistakes, and misfortunes.
His texts show that he is devaluing me to the children and telling them things about me to turn them against me.
I only wish I had read them properly and understood them at the time because they were telling me what he was doing with the children’s minds and what was to happen in the future.
In one text he actually talks about getting my daughter alone to tell her all about me.
4/07/07
“No problem me picking up B. I’ll have plenty of time to TACTFULLY explain the new sleeping arrangements in her home.”
His texts reveal his narcissism in full flight and contain many examples of the language he regularly used to attack me.
They also show his anger and rage when I don’t go alone with his plans. In his eyes, he is entitled to complete compliance with his wishes any anything else is a threat to his control.
Admitting Triangulation Using the Children
In this text the narcissist Gordon admits to using the children in a triangulation against me. He uses them to threaten and manipulate me. He used the standard abusive language he uses regularly. "Everyone thinks its dispicable that you use the children like this.."...
Call With My Sister in 1996
This is a transcript of a conversation I recorded with my sister who was, soon after diagnosed as having schizophrenia. She later had the diagnosis of Bipolar made. At the time of this my sister had a new baby. She was hospitalized before and after the birth and I...
My 15 Year Old Self – I Am Not This Body
I Don’t Want To Go Home – Me Aged Fourteen
Letter From Debbie 1996
This is a letter from 1996 written by my sister Debbie who lived in Germany at the time. The letter describes the situation that Helen and Barbara were living in and how worried she was about them. She and I went to social services and she actually asked to take care...
Facebook Conversation With My Sister
This thread shows a conversation with my narcissist sister. The thread demonstrated the lies, manipulation, grandiosity, sense of entitlement and delusions that narcissists use to attempt to control people. I reconnected with my sister in 2022 after 10 years as my...
How Do I Know My Sister Is A Narcissist
Background My second to youngest sibling B, is eighteen years younger than me. I witnessed first hand how she was neglected by my narcissistic mother and violent narcissist father. She was born to the second group of siblings. I am the oldest of the first three, all...
Verbal Abuse I Received Daily from The Narcissist
Gordon started the verbal abuse, put down, undermining me, belittling me as soon as we met. I was used to being emotionally abused and ignored by my narcissistic parents so Gordon treated me in a manner which was familiar to me. I met quite a lot of nice men but they...
Characteristics Of Narcissists and Non-Narcissists
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