I wrote to the narcissist – “I feel erased. I don’t exist to you.”  The date I wrote this is not recorded.

This explains how I felt  living with the Gordon, the narcissist.

At the time I did not know I was living with a fragile, vulnerable, covert narcissist.

The drawing was made by my 3 year old daughter.

” I Can’t Get Through To You 

You define my experiences and seem to fail to grasp that.

I am a person with my own reality.

I feel erased.

I don’t exist to you.

Trying to maintain a relationship with you leaves me exhausted and in mental anguish and emotional pain.

You don’t want to hear me, understand me, nor even WANT to understand me.

You have to be right.

You tell me what I think and who I am.

Imply I am mad when I don’t agree.

You feel attacked when asked a question.

You don’t seem to hear me.

You avoid responsibility.

You are unable to be straight with people.

The typical passive aggressive man has not dealt with anger and power issues with parents and replays them in the current relationship.

I have a right to everything I feel. “

 

 

 

My Story – The Early Years

My Story – The Early Years

 I began writing a journal in 2003. I wanted to record my feelings and also the events leading up to the inevitable breakdown of my 27-year marriage to Gordon. I wanted my children to understand how hard I tried to fix the relationship and why, in the end, I could no...

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Parenthood With A Narcissist

Parenthood With A Narcissist

Parenthood With a Narcissist - Emotional Abandonment “People with personality disorders have to create the illusion of a relationship while protecting themselves from a real relationship which would stir up all those bad feelings”.           James F Masterson. Gordon...

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Smearing By The Narcissist

During the contact I had with my sister which you can read about here she told me an interesting piece of information that stunned me. Gordon has been smearing me since day one! Even at my fathers funeral he took the opportunity to tell everyone what I was like. That...

How Do You Know Your Niece is A Narcissist?

How Do You Know Your Niece is A Narcissist?

This video by Frank Yeomans explains exactly why it is impossible to have a relationship with or to help a narcissist. You can't burst the bubble that helps them to feel good about themselves. He gives such a great example of a woman who believes she is going to...

Frank Yeomans Describes Gordons UpBringing

Frank Yeomans Describes Gordons UpBringing

In this amazing video Dr Frank Yeomans describes Gordon's childhood experience exactly and explains why the person then develops narcissism. I witnessed this first had by watching the ways Gordon's father and mother interacted with him and their grandsons. Gordon's...

HG Tudor Narc Detector

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